Lord, I love you for all I know
how. As best as I know how, I have surrendered my life to your control and your
desires. I know you look with special favor on those that, in awe, tremble at your Word (Isa
66:2) and are broken and contrite in self (Ps 51:17) and passionate toward you.
That is my heart’s cry and daily goal. I believe you and your Word. I do have
faith in you. I speak your Words and claim your promises. Out of honor to you
and your worthiness, I endeavor to keep you and your desires at the forefront
of my mind and ahead of my personal needs and blessings that you have promised me. I
simply, want my life to honor you!
Still………… I’m just not good
enough!!!
I could have the faith of the
strongest Bible-time disciple or the current-day’s most boisterous or genuine
“faith teacher”, I could be as humble and full of servanthood as Mother Teresa
on “humble-steroids”, I could spend all day in your Word and all night in my
prayer closet, I could see visions, make great prophesies and speak in unknown tongues, I could help lead
the entire world to faith in Jesus Christ, and ……..
Still………… I’m just not good
enough!!!
Your Word makes many promises
based on our faith, and on our surrender, and on our broken and contrite spirit,
and on our level of intimacy with you. And I believe you! But I also hear you say
that, “There is none righteous, no not one.” (Rm 3:10-12) I know that my strongest righteousness is as
the most “filthy of rags.” (Isa 64:6) If
I’m Peter, or Paul, or Mother Teresa, or the greatest TV evangelists, even
then, at my very best ….
Still………….. I’m just not good
enough!!!
But Lord, I need you! I need and
desire your dynamic presence and power in my life. I’m laying my best out
there, because you ask for it, you deserve it, and I love you. But, in spite of
it all, in the end…..
Still…………… I’m just not good
enough!!!
So, I’m asking you to do something big for me, that I DO NOT DESERVE!!! I’m asking you to look past me (and my best efforts and worst failures) and when you look my way, I’m asking you to see your Son, Jesus Christ! And I’m asking you to move in my life, not because of my goodness, but because of HIS PERFECTION, HIS GODLINESS, HIS MERCY! Please move, for your honor and glory and because of your unfathomable MERCY in giving me the very “righteousness of God through the work of your Son, Jesus Christ!” (2 Cor 5:21) If you don’t see Him when you look my way, I’m sunk! And even my strongest faith means nothing! But through your mercy, you have promised that when you look at me you will see Him and His Holiness! Thank you! Your Words says it is truth and I do not deserve it, but I am counting on…….
HIM……….. to be good enough!!!
